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Middle Ground

6 days ago under Somebody Else's Song

Vertical Horizon

You illuminate me
You’re the color I see
You’re all that shines above
Through the dark and distrust
All the doubt in your eyes
All the stars in mine
Is it the distance you need
Or is it just me

I know you’re awake
‘cause you shake when you cry
As long as I wait I’ve got nothing but time

Take me in or just take me out
Put me on if you must or just put me down
‘Cause I’m done
I’m all worn out
We’re either alive or a lie
I’m done with the middle ground

You’re the wind at my back
You’re the courage I lack
But you live your life like a war
What are you fighting for

Your touch is the water that gives and takes away
So I wait in the gutter for another rainy day

You close your eyes to see the sun
And all the things you’ve never done
They all come out in the dark
And once again just break your heart
I know you’re awake
‘cause you shake when you cry
I’ll hold you I’ll hold you but you’ve got to decide

· · ·

Done with the middle ground

You finally got the nerve to watch 500 Days of Summer (but only because Mas said so). You didn’t finish the movie, sobrang sinabi mo na wala ng romantic films evarr di ba? It’s just that Tom, and especially Summer’s achingly too familiar. At isa lang masasabi mo: yes, you’d love, pwede bang hindi (sana pwede) but you’d never be in love again. Sigh.

P.S. Nakakapagod na, been stuck for a thousand years. The above-mentioned song struck a chord, but Even Now’s doubly sad. Ang hilig ng VH sa “even” (Call It Even?) when they know nothing’s fair in love anymore. Sigh.

Feb Weekends

10 days ago under Sky Is Falling

Baguio

You’ve always been wanting to go out of town together, you and N. Bonding. So once your schedules finally cleared up, it took the both of you no time to plan a weekend trip to the City of Pines.

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Friday, you rode the midnight bus from Cubao. You arrived early Saturday morning and stayed in a convent (haha) recommended by M and you just simply perused a map in order to get around, mostly via cabs. Transportation’s relatively cheap and carefree in the city, it’s quite a shock to meet polite cab drivers who give back the correct change without a fuss. Such a plus factor of meeting nice people who do not take advantage of silly, gullible tourists was marred by an incident though. While you’re in Burnham Park, your bag got slashed during your stroll. Good thing the thief bastard failed to nick anything from you. Sayang nga lang yung bag. Anyway, all in all, from the cool weather to the presence of big St. Bernard (and Siberian Husky) dogs, yummy food and lots and lots of strawberries, your short stay was so fun and so worth it. Sunday night you’re finally home (ang ganda ng bus terminal ng VL sa Baguio waah) and with the cuties so cute waiting for you. :p

Crustasia

Next Saturday, after some work and errands and stuff (you went to Canon Makati to have Alex fixed), M treated you to dinner at Crustasia, Trinoma. Crabs and ribs and panna cotta. Lovely. :)

V-day

Okay, you don’t hate the day as much. So?

T invited you last minute to watch Rent the Musical in RCBC Plaza. Apparently he had an extra ticket and what better way to catch up with an old friend but to watch a play, right? Wrong. Apart from the play being mediocre, the talk you had with him reminded you of sad, hurtful things: loneliness can be unbearable especially on this stupid night. You’re just grateful for the gesture of him remembering and wanting to be with you and that’s that. XD

The moon glows, the river flows, but I die, without you.

Cavite, after three years

Joke, though it’s been more or less than a month since you last went home to Dasma. After a grueling two-day workshop and parenting seminar eating up your weekend, whew, it’s nice to be taken care of for a change. :D

P.S. Next week kaya, pano naman? EDIT:

R.O.X. and “August” :)

After a sort of lazy and unproductive Saturday (tried working at home pero tinulugan mo lang lahat ng paperwork mo), Sunday came in the form of having brunch at Market! Market! and then going to Bonifacio High Street with M to check out the sale at R.O.X. Wala naman kayong nabili, boo (pero okay narin to taper off ruining your summer budgets). But you had cake and Quickly coffee shake so no further complaints there. You then rushed to Trinoma to watch, tenen, “Miss You Like Crazy” (pakana ni N as usual, anything for Papa Lloydie) and laughed over everything laughable about the movie. Syempre the laughs just masked your ill feelings about it. Sobrang nakarelate ka naman sa mushiness (at ka-jologsan) ng pesteng sine na yun. Nakakairita kasi yung fact na justified ang pagiging cheating bastards ng mga tao by glorifying their love stories at the end. Sino naman ang magvi-vindicate ng stories nung mga naiwan? Subconsciously, you’re beginning to root for “that other woman” characters in movies. Yes, they tend to be annoying and clingy sometimes, but who wouldn’t be when their boyfriends are bound to leave them for the girl bida? No, seriously, ano bang nigawa nila kundi mahalin ang mga bobong lalaki sa buhay nila? Instead na magsulat sa bato, parang mas masayang mambato. Haha. You’re being bitter again. It’s just that love can be so unfair. Pfft. Kainin nyo yang love na yan, sana yung may patayan nalang nipanood nyo. Lol, affected. Basta, no more romantic films for you if you can avoid it. XD

P.S.2. Waah March na!!! Sadly, mukhang wala na talagang pag-asang bunuin ang Indochina trip nyo (especially not after the admin postponing a week of your time-off)… or any out-of-the-country summer trip for that matter. Di bale… marami ka pa namang di napupuntahan sa Pilipinas di ba? Go Sagada! Go Pulag! Go Pinatubo! Go Coron! Go Batanes! Go Corregidor! Go… uh, kahit sa tabi-tabi lang, matuloy lang kayo, masaya ka na. :)

Happiness

22 days ago under Only One

is spelled by three dumb, easy words. Technically you missed it pero kahit na.
Now you’re sure. You’re really, really sure.
I know you love me like the past, the now, the coming years.
P.S. Today made your whole year. Thank you!:)

Part of something

40 days ago under Everybody Is Someone

“I’ll fight for the chance to be someone whole.” -Roxas of Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days

Your “new year” always seems to start at the last few weeks of February. Good beginnings tend to happen around that time. This year proved to be different though. Everything (both good and the-not-so-good) seems to happen all at the same time. In short, ngarag. :)

Anyway, because of the busy-ness, it totally slipped out of your mind that you just had your 4-year anniversary being with the school. Imagine, 4 years. 4 years straight being part of an institution. Already equal to the time one spends in high school. Or college.

Being part of something. It’s definitely something to celebrate about.

P.S. Wish you could say the same for your grad studies. The clock is ticking, katakot, isang reading subject nga sobrang nawalan ka na ng motivation na tapusin man lang (ayusan pa kaya)… pano naman that 6-letter word that begins with TH? Brr…
P.P.S. BTW, just had the 10th (or 9th?) family day of the school today. Olympics yung theme. Kakapagod. Mas took care of your tokens with their ultimate photobooth. Galeng bumilib ka nanaman. You just love photos. :D

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47 days ago under Sky Is Falling

Stumbling I fall away it’s hard to make a change
Easy to be who you are when no one knows your name.

The three of you treated TJ to lunch for his birthday today. In all honesty, the act reeks of the word “bribery” so he would talk to you about his “latest escapades with the opposite sex” and the mean prank you played on him yesterday. How hard you laughed hearing taunt after taunt from everyone that he was hardly able to continue with anything he has to say about the matter.

Everyone has moved on, or so it seems. Meme and Z are married and with kids, and you, well… With the comings and goings of the cool 10 batch, kayo nalang ang natira, at dumating nalang ang araw na di na kayo ang “beauties” niya.

You can’t believe you’ve become part of the “old timers” in the institution now, whereas noon aanga-angang “baby” ka ng lahat. Feeling mo lola ka na ngayon, with all the new, young blood coming in each year. And gosh, you just miss the days where you can easily express almost anything to anyone and you don’t have to be too careful and be a goody two-shoes role model all the time because your position didn’t really call for it before. Ngayon, sabihin nalang natin na, mas kelangang matino ang naipro-project mong persona. Iba na yung responsibilities, iba na yung standards. Okay lang. Pressure lang kung minsan. :)

How time flies so fast, before you know it, March na ulit. Summer na, tapos bagong school year na naman. San ka dadalhin ng pagiging guro/cc mo? Di mo alam. Basta masaya ka na kasama mo parin sila… for almost 4 years (ilang araw nalang foundation day mo na sa school)… and counting.

P.S. Wow your 200th post on this install. Well spent. :)

Engines

53 days ago under Somebody Else's Song

Snow Patrol

Only the faintest only the faintest glance buries you buries me
So fire your engine see if I give a damn we’ll be dust instantly
Caught in a jet stream caught in a gorgeous howl all the world lost in noise
Use me forever use as rocket fuel I’ll be air I’ll be fire

You say you love me like the silence of the turning earth
You say you love me like the endless roar of modern of life
You say you love me like the laughter and the kissed back tears
You say you love me like the past the now the coming years

What will you remember what will you think of me after I say goodbye
Returning in bodies, plants and the sand you’ll squeeze between shoeless feet

I know I love you like the silvered gold of dying days
I know I love you like an ancient history brought to life
I know I love you like the sunlit water on your skin
I know I love you like the million times I never said

I know you love me like the silence of the turning earth
I know you love me like the endless roar of modern of life
I know you love me like the laughter and the kissed back tears
I know you love me like the past the now the coming years

—Aww.

· · ·

Choices, choices, decisions, decisions.

You’re having this conversation over fastfood breakfast this morning. Muntik na nga nanaman kayong magtalo about some stupid business-y, market-y stuff na never mong maintindihan. May nabanggit siya about being “the choice” against being “a choice” in relation to the subject of branding. Syempre in the eternal end of the conversation, natahimik ka nalang dahil umaandar again your “overanalyzation” (whattaword) skills. Napaisip ka nalang… na isa iyong analogy. Para sa kanya,
Sang category kaya ikaw andun? “The Choice,” “A Choice,” or none of the above? Anong brand mo, a, ab or x? Kelan matatapos fighting spirit ng mga tao? Kelan ba lilinaw ang lahat at titino ang usapan? Stay or go or go then come back? Nakakapagod na eh. Pero gusto mong maniwala naman…
I know you love me like the past the now the coming years.
Ang “aww” talaga. Sigh. Can’t help but be baduy and emo.

P.S. Questions, questions, engines are running. Again.