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• Chapter One
• Everybody Is Someone
• Hanging By A Moment
• My Precious
• Only One
• Please Just Take These Photos From My Hands
• Sky Is Falling
• Somebody Else's Song
• Spin
• The End Has Only Begun
• Thnks fr the Mmrs

Part of something

“I’ll fight for the chance to be someone whole.” -Roxas of Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days

Your “new year” always seems to start at the last few weeks of February. Good beginnings tend to happen around that time. This year proved to be different though. Everything (both good and the-not-so-good) seems to happen all at the same time. In short, ngarag. :)

Anyway, because of the busy-ness, it totally slipped out of your mind that you just had your 4-year anniversary being with the school. Imagine, 4 years. 4 years straight being part of an institution. Already equal to the time one spends in high school. Or college.

Being part of something. It’s definitely something to celebrate about.

P.S. Wish you could say the same for your grad studies. The clock is ticking, katakot, isang reading subject nga sobrang nawalan ka na ng motivation na tapusin man lang (ayusan pa kaya)… pano naman that 6-letter word that begins with TH? Brr…
P.P.S. BTW, just had the 10th (or 9th?) family day of the school today. Olympics yung theme. Kakapagod. Mas took care of your tokens with their ultimate photobooth. Galeng bumilib ka nanaman. You just love photos. :D

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Stumbling I fall away it’s hard to make a change
Easy to be who you are when no one knows your name.

The three of you treated TJ to lunch for his birthday today. In all honesty, the act reeks of the word “bribery” so he would talk to you about his “latest escapades with the opposite sex” and the mean prank you played on him yesterday. How hard you laughed hearing taunt after taunt from everyone that he was hardly able to continue with anything he has to say about the matter.

Everyone has moved on, or so it seems. Meme and Z are married and with kids, and you, well… With the comings and goings of the cool 10 batch, kayo nalang ang natira, at dumating nalang ang araw na di na kayo ang “beauties” niya.

You can’t believe you’ve become part of the “old timers” in the institution now, whereas noon aanga-angang “baby” ka ng lahat. Feeling mo lola ka na ngayon, with all the new, young blood coming in each year. And gosh, you just miss the days where you can easily express almost anything to anyone and you don’t have to be too careful and be a goody two-shoes role model all the time because your position didn’t really call for it before. Ngayon, sabihin nalang natin na, mas kelangang matino ang naipro-project mong persona. Iba na yung responsibilities, iba na yung standards. Okay lang. Pressure lang kung minsan. :)

How time flies so fast, before you know it, March na ulit. Summer na, tapos bagong school year na naman. San ka dadalhin ng pagiging guro/cc mo? Di mo alam. Basta masaya ka na kasama mo parin sila… for almost 4 years (ilang araw nalang foundation day mo na sa school)… and counting.

P.S. Wow your 200th post on this install. Well spent. :)

Engines

Snow Patrol

Only the faintest only the faintest glance buries you buries me
So fire your engine see if I give a damn we’ll be dust instantly
Caught in a jet stream caught in a gorgeous howl all the world lost in noise
Use me forever use as rocket fuel I’ll be air I’ll be fire

You say you love me like the silence of the turning earth
You say you love me like the endless roar of modern of life
You say you love me like the laughter and the kissed back tears
You say you love me like the past the now the coming years

What will you remember what will you think of me after I say goodbye
Returning in bodies, plants and the sand you’ll squeeze between shoeless feet

I know I love you like the silvered gold of dying days
I know I love you like an ancient history brought to life
I know I love you like the sunlit water on your skin
I know I love you like the million times I never said

I know you love me like the silence of the turning earth
I know you love me like the endless roar of modern of life
I know you love me like the laughter and the kissed back tears
I know you love me like the past the now the coming years

—Aww.

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Choices, choices, decisions, decisions.

You’re having this conversation over fastfood breakfast this morning. Muntik na nga nanaman kayong magtalo about some stupid business-y, market-y stuff na never mong maintindihan. May nabanggit siya about being “the choice” against being “a choice” in relation to the subject of branding. Syempre in the eternal end of the conversation, natahimik ka nalang dahil umaandar again your “overanalyzation” (whattaword) skills. Napaisip ka nalang… na isa iyong analogy. Para sa kanya,
Sang category kaya ikaw andun? “The Choice,” “A Choice,” or none of the above? Anong brand mo, a, ab or x? Kelan matatapos fighting spirit ng mga tao? Kelan ba lilinaw ang lahat at titino ang usapan? Stay or go or go then come back? Nakakapagod na eh. Pero gusto mong maniwala naman…
I know you love me like the past the now the coming years.
Ang “aww” talaga. Sigh. Can’t help but be baduy and emo.

P.S. Questions, questions, engines are running. Again.

Beaches

http://www.flickr.com/photos/flops16/sets/72157623171822066/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/flops16/sets/72157623053534509/

http://www.flickr.com/photos/flops16/sets/72157623172413666/

P.S. Been to a couple of places on earth among to have the best ones… :)

Okay fine

You actually felt offended, they didn’t even have the imagination to give you a codename like Bellatrix or Ms. X or something. At least kung ganun pwede mong isipin pinagaksayahan ka ng effort para tawagin kang witch meaning you might be that important and all at hindi naman palagi kang labeled as “pathetic” if ever ma mention man ang napakadakila mong being with anything. Sigh.

Anyway, you fought the urge to sink low again, be catty, and point-by-point, vandalize their justifications with your own. But first of all, those records were not meant for you nor to be even seen by you, and second of all sino ba ang talo kung nagpadala ka di ba? Ikaw rin. You rallied strong and hard just to stay afloat on this stupid drama and you’re not about to throw everything away for something actually petty. Baka dati pwede pa, pero not now. You recently just realized that there are more important things in life than to stay bitter and angry.

Sa’yo lang, alam mo namang wala kang sapak sa utak, though you won’t go on and on making this all about you. It was never about you, gusto nga ng madlang people maging non-existent ka kung pwede lang di ba? Kaya naman nagstart ang lahat ng ‘to dahil wala silang pakialam sa’yo. Pero nag-aksaya ka narin lang ng isang blog post, siguro dapat mo nang isulat once and for all ang stand mo na: unfair naman yun sa kanya para palagi nalang na tawaging ass or jerk paulit-ulit behind his back. Di niya naman pinagpilitang maging close sa mga tao, much more sa mga babae, nangyari lang yun and kung kasalanan niyang paasahin niya ang mga babaeng nahuhumaling sa kanya, well, you just let the guy put it in a disclaimer on his forehead. Unfair kasi di nila siya ganung kakilala to type up nasty words about him in something as public as a public blog accessible to the prying eyes (ehem) of many.

P.S. Isipin na ang gustong isipin, you tried your best to accord everyone that freedom for more than three years. Kagaya nga lang ng lagi mong nisasabi, “Sana lang napasaya kayo ng mga naiisip nyo.” Kasi ikaw, habang nita type mo ‘tong mga ‘to… hindi happy. :(

First week of the year = crazy

Shuttling out of CDO in a trance.
Gathering with hs friends again almost 10 years after graduation.
Secret.
Avatar 3D for the third time (fourth if you’re counting viewing the film in the seacat).
Work, work, work and tons of work (went home after 7 thrice this week, not counting MA class day).
Battling with UTI.
Fight 1 of the year. :(
Mousy dying. (Aww, tear. T_T)

P.S. You think you should expound on this post more, but then… it wouldn’t really matter to anyone. ;)